My body, my self

I’m fat. There, I said it. That’s got be step one of a twelve step program or something. I should be halfway, or one twelfth of the way, towards being skinny now. Isn’t that how it works? I remember a year ago, after training for a couple of marathons, after getting in decent shape, and after getting married, being told by some older friends that I would start gaining weight. They said that just by virtue of my marriage I would spend less time working out and more time eating. They said my body would change. I scoffed at the idea, but here I am, one year later, feeling more out of shape than at any time since high school.

Of course, I’m also reading about and studying psychiatry for medical school right now. Anyone who’s ever taken a psychology course knows what I’m talking about when I say that reading the description of any arbitrary body image disorder and I can convince myself that, yeah, I might have that. Then again, I’m also reading about diabetes, and with a pretty strong family history the only really protective factor for me not developing adult onset diabetes is losing enough weight that I consistently underweight. This is, of course, a fact that I have known since college and avoided for a number of reasons, owing mostly to the fact that I love to eat.

So, my solution/resolution of the moment: accounting. Maybe if I keep one of those inane food logs I can stay aware of all the unnecessary junk I’m stuffing down my gullet. Maybe I can un-normalize the concept of “lunch dessert” which has become less of a treat and more of a dietary staple as of late.

Bathroom scale: 198 lbs (who knows how accurate?)

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4 responses to “My body, my self

  1. If you plan to track your food I would suggest sparkpeople.com they have a nice database. I joined Babyfit over 2 years ago (the pregnant portion of babyfit) and I like it. I am now climbing on the weight scale (only 3 pounds from being over weight) but that is because I quite smoking 9 months ago and gained 15 pounds. It is hard for people who LOVE food but I am finding it fun also to find fresh healthy things to blog about, oh I mean make for my family. Good luck and you can do it.

    Shayne

  2. Saskya

    hey, was stalking my friends while Jeremy was watching mythbusters and stumbled on your site. I haven’t weighed myself but I’m completely out of shape too. You’ll have to tell me how useful the log is. Let me know if you want to train for something again. šŸ™‚

  3. Hey Dylan,

    I came across your site through Eye Level Pasadena.

    I just read this on another blog (UnHip LA) and I thought I’d share it…

    www (dot) biggestmenu (dot) com

    It has listings/pictures of favorite foods and restaurants. (I’m not helping in your efforts am I?) The site asks you to insert your exercise routine…hmmm… Lord knows I won’t be visiting it any time soon.

    On a serious note, school takes up A LOT of time. It’s what you’re reading that accentuates your feelings towards being over-weight. There’s always QuickGym! 8 minute work-outs šŸ™‚ You can try that until it’s time to train for the marathon again. My brother did it last year and he motivated me to do it this year.

  4. Happy Thanksgiving! I still want to read the kitchen gadget blog you were dreaming up.

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